Pain Will crash on me like waves

I gotta pit in my stomach that I can’t close

A brutal pain inside my chest that no one knows

Tell me why would I play these games when we both lose

I’ve given everything I have to wind up bruised…again

Tell me why would I open up my heart

Only to let you go and stab blades in it

Tell me why would I show what is vulnerable

Only for you to know all my weaknesses

I can’t seem to get past your defenses

So why would I be the first to let you in

I don’t trust a soul on this cursed planet

So I’ve learned to deal with the loneliness

Soul is feeling dirty like it’s covered in mud

It’s like the deeper that we go the more the blood flows

Out from the wounds that we made within

The deepest parts of each other’s subconscious

The love is fleeting and I’m feeling like you’re leaving again

It’s not a fear of abandonment it’s acquiescence

No I won’t let myself cling onto to your presence

But pain will crash on me like waves after the severance